Oh, the Humanity

In February 2011 I had health insurance.  I did not have a great, comprehensive plan because my employer did not offer benefits and I was no longer married.  What I had was an affordable, catastrophic health coverage policy because I was young and healthy.  And because a comprehensive plan was going to cost $375/month. On ... More

“What I Did At Camp.” Or, “How I Became a Nude Model at 40.”

I flew to Atlanta a couple of weeks ago to Patti Digh's Design Your Life Camp.  When she announced she was having one I knew I would go.  Just like you know when it's time to quit a job or eat lunch.  Then Patti asked me to come teach yoga at camp, and suddenly going to camp wouldn't cost me anything except time.  Of course ... More

“I can’t meditate!”

When I tell people that I teach yoga and meditation people that have no relationship to yoga and meditation tell me all the reasons they can't do them.  Or that they have always wanted to do them but don't.  Or that they have tried them and that yoga and meditation just aren't for them.  That's like someone saying food is ... More

Suspense

sus·pense noun /səˈspens/ a.  A state or feeling of excited or anxious uncertainty about what may happen b.  The temporary cessation or suspension of something Wednesday I'm having a PET scan and bone scan.  They are routine scans, scheduled as a part of my maintenance plan.  In the past few weeks ... More

Another stop on Reconstruction Lane

I saw Dr. Hotter (plastic surgeon) last week to schedule the next and hopefully last phase of surgical reconstruction, which is to get nipples.  (You can giggle if you want.  Nipple is a funny word.)  When you get the initial reconstructive surgery there is A LOT going on and things have to settle in and heal before they do ... More

What Shall We Celebrate Today?

I have been thinking about adversity as a blessing many times over the last few years.  In moving through my husband's severe depression and hospitalization and how that affected our marriage, through divorce, selling our family home, my mother's battle with alcohol and drugs and subsequent hospital stay and then to my own ... More

Thank God That’s Over!

I have been thinking about what to write to tell about my experiences in the hospital.  It was a long eight days.  Some of them were spent pretty loopy yet I think I remember most of the time I spent there.  I checked in Friday, the 17th.  Did my pre-op stuff, at which I’m an expert now since that was my fourth time to go ... More

Kissing Your Sister

I think I should be feeling pretty excited right about now. I had a PET scan at MD Anderson on January 5th and on the 6th found out that it showed no distant metasisis and no cancer in the local area of my first two incidences of cancer. The only issue was a seroma at the site of my October surgery. My experience there was "a ... More

I’m an Anomoly!

  Last Friday morning, while laying in bed doing my lymphedema massage (which is totally not a euphamism for anything remotely sexual) I discovered a small lump above my left breast.  It was very painful and I could feel that it was along a vein.  When I went to radiation I mentioned it to the radiation therapist and she ... More

I spy with my left eye…

  It has been a rough few days.  Yesterday morning I was minding my own business, talking to my dad on the phone, and when I went to use the computer all the characters were messed up.  Like running together, or spots missing in between them or somesuch nonsense.  Weird and hard to describe.  I thought I would get up and ... More